It's kind of crazy to realize that, hey, I'm actually going somewhere. Where it's completely different, but the exact same all at once. I've lived in the same spot my whole life; other than moving once to a location forty-five minutes away from the old house.
Almost nothing changed. But now ... It's going to crazy. It is crazy. We have a weight limit; and can't bring everything. We don't aren't going to bring even a quarter of the books that we own.
That's probably the hardest thing for me to accept has to happen. All of my friends are moving or have moved away already. I'm going to have to come out of my introverted shell, and face the world for three years. Three years.
My reputation at the church we go to is entirely founded on that. Being that weird, introverted, geeky homeschooled kid. Who's been there forever, so I become sub-normal.
I'm going to have join different groups so that I won't end up being lonely again. I love being an introvert, a geek, a Christian, and homeschooled, but I still need friends. I'm like any other human being, even if I am not of this world.
I like having time to myself, curled up reading or writing a book. I also love to spend time with my equally geeky friends. I love many, many fandoms. Star Wars, Disney, Anne of Green Gable, Lord of The Rings; you name it! I love my God, but I hate being ridiculed and shunned for my views.
I want people to know how I feel. I'm a human being too; even if you think me weird. I clam up because I get hurt sometimes. And I don't want to be hurt again. It's impossible, but I it's a defense mechanism.
Call me a potato bug. A chameleon. But I have a voice, and I want to sing my song for the world to hear. Maybe just my friends will hear it, but it's a small step forward.
Getting rid of things has been the main occupation of the last few weeks. Now it's deciding what to bring with us, and what should go in each shipment. And then the things will go.
And I probably won't be around much in April and June, but I'll try to write some things during that time. Some of them may not be published until July, but they'll be around.
Until then, happy travelling, friend. :)
